Have you noticed the ticker up top? The one counting down the moments until I hold my baby? Well, today kicks off “30 Days to Baby”! I am a big believer in the “GUESS DATE” instead of a due date, so 30 days is just an estimate, it could be 10 days … or 40! I wanted to chronicle this last bit of pregnancy a bit better – my thoughts on motherhood, my fears and the things I am most looking forward too. So here it goes …
Hope.
This is one of the words I have chosen to focus on during my daily relaxation time. Which, might I add, is usually only 1-5 minutes. I promise I’m aiming for 20 minutes like the Bradley Method recommends, but I’m not perfect, and 5 minutes is better than nothing.
Anyways, hope is such an encouraging word. It has no end. It means I don’t have to worry, because there is a promise of a brighter tomorrow. As a soon-to-be mama I am hopeful of so many things … healthy delivery, healthy baby, quality transition to life as a family of three, success in breastfeedng, a few hours of sleep each night, fulfilling maternity leave, do-able transition back to work, ability to stay at home with my child[ren] someday and much more.
I don’t feel like I have a solid grasp on what it means to be a mom yet. How do you put words to something you have never experienced? Even with this unknown, I do understand that this baby, at this time, is part of God’s perfect will. That gives me the most hope. Hope that God is in control of my life. He has great plans for this child and as long as I strive to be within His will I will have the power and perspective to be the best parent I can be.
35 Weeks of Hope |
Oh Little One … I can hardly believe that you will be in my arms soon. I can’t wait to hear your cry, see your sweet face and wrap my arms around you. Your Daddy is very excited too. We talk about you all of the time and are quickly preparing our home to welcome you. Every day you are getting bigger and I can feel it! Your movements are getting stronger and I can tell you are running out of space. I pray every day that you know and feel how much you are already loved. You have brought new purpose to my life and I can’t wait to share all of life’s goodness with you.
Heather says
That last month or pregnancy, can be so exciting and so scary. I have very fond memories of that time…before you know it your little one will be 18 months old and tearing your house apart…so cherish these little moments where you can sit with your hubby and feel a kick while you can. ;) Holding that baby for the first time will permanently mark your heart forever! Happy Mommyhood!!!! :) Heather from Mommy Only Has Two Hands!
carol says
beautiful dear Gretchen..
cubanlover says
You make me cry with how precious these journals are! I'm so glad to be a part of this journey with you!