Join Me for a Chai?

I’m not much of a coffee drinker these days. At least not at home. I still splurge on a latte when I escape the house. I’ve been enjoying almond milk Ovaltine or a chai tea … mmmmm. So warm and cozy on these blustery days.

So, why don’t you join me for a chai? My Mama has a really cute mug collection and you can pick anyone you want :)

I like to sit at the kitchen table to think when it’s quiet so we can settle there. From here I can see the wooded backyard and a deer or two sometimes, keep an eye on Jemma as she plays in the living room and listen for Max in the bathroom. Yes, Max naps in his swing in the bathroom because he is in love with the sound the bathroom fan. 

As we sip our chai, I’d tell you that I’ve been feeling pretty lousy as a mama. I constantly feel torn between fulfilling Jemma’s needs and Max’s needs. I don’t have enough arms or time or patience. It’s frustrating me, but I’m doing my best. I’m guessing I’m not alone in the frustrations of motherhood. How are things for you?

Oh, you’re wondering how long we’re going to be living at my parents? Yeah, me too. I’m super unsettled not knowing the plan with the property. The county is dragging their feet to the nth degree and it really makes me loathe the government’s control over things like this. I’m aching to set up house. I’m most excited about creating Jemma and Max’s play room. Do you ever feel like you’re just waiting around for the next thing? I feel guilty that I’m rushing time along. I know I shouldn’t. I really am loving the time and extra help that comes with being here. My Mom is an angel. Like, seriously, an angel. I don’t even know how to begin to explain how she manages everything she does.

Pause there … I need a refill and Jem is begging for a movie. I’m happy to appease, movies are my quiet time crutch.

Dominic has been THE dad lately. He could step in and run my life in a heartbeat if he had to. I’m so blessed to have him as my partner. I didn’t always think things would be this way. Our first year of marriage was super rough. We fought a lot and I remember telling him he was the worst roommate ever. I even threw a picture frame at him once; good thing I have such poor aim. It took time, but we worked through our communication and expectation issues and I’m so proud of where we are now. He cares so much about us. I hope he knows how much we love him! Just to make sure, the littles and I have a fun surprise planned for him soon. I can’t wait to tell you all about it! Isn’t it crazy how God brings two people together? I definitely don’t believe it’s by chance. It’s beautifully orchestrated; the most beautiful symphony of life and love.

It’s really hard too – being married with little ones. We rarely get quality time together. At the end of the day we’re tired inside and out. But, we’re striving to keep each other a priority. How do you manage? Do you think it gets easier as the kid’s get older? I’m guessing it is just different with each season. Only time will tell.

I could babble on for days and days. I have so many moments to think about life when I’m home all day. I have to stop myself from letting my mind wander often and focus on being present. It isn’t easy, but it is so worth it. How are you being present in your life? I need ideas? I know it usually starts with me setting my phone aside. I’m even contemplating a media fast of sorts in the New Year …

I hope you liked your chai and our little chat today! You’re place next week? You’ll be making cookies? Well then, I’ll be there! I never say no to cookies :)

P.S. Since we’re saving money by sipping at home this morning, why not contribute $5 to our 2012 Service Project? We’re collecting funds to sponsor two foster children’s Christmas and I would love your help! One donation has come in thus far and I’m hoping for a bundle more :) Donation link is in the top right!